Hi. I apologize in advance but I just have to vent for a second, okay?
I am not ready for this.
Morning sickness, or truly in my case all-day-sickness is the worst thing ever. I was not at all prepared for how sick I would be when we decided to start trying for kids. I hoped and prayed that I would be one of the lucky ladies who never got sick during their whole pregnancy. I had plans, ya know. Plans to work the entire time, save up money, and slowly make the transition to being a stay at home mom. With how sick I am right now, I can't even think about work. Luckily UVU is on spring break right now, so I am able to rest, and the worst of the sickness came at a good time, I suppose.
I had to go to the urgent care on Tuesday night for a stupid IV because I couldn't keep anything down. Not ginger ale, gatorade, water or even a handful of pretzels. At the urgent care they said they were closing soon so they wouldn't start an IV for me. So off to the stupid ER. We were there for 5 hours. 1.5 of which was in the waiting room, and once we were taken back to an actual room, it took 2 hours for someone to even come in and get an IV started.
Apparently the patient in the room next to me coded blue (??) and had to be sent to the trauma room. The lady that was with the patient started screaming and crying so it must've been pretty bad. I felt sad for them, whoever they were.
Anyway, I was discharged around 2am and came home. The IV helped (and they gave me phenergan in the IV bag), but I was STILL nauseas. The phenergan only made me sleepy.
I am doing okay today. Not great. Not even normal.
I have SEVERAL people coming up to me and telling me this:
"Remember Kat, you chose this. You chose to get pregnant."
Oh, agreed. But I did NOT choose horrible all-day sickness. I did NOT choose to be so sick that I have to get a stupid IV. NO. I did not choose that. No one really knows how their first pregnancy (or any pregnancy really) is going to be until it actually happens.
I am not mentally, physically or any other way prepared to have a pregnancy like this. This could last my WHOLE pregnancy. So much for my plans, right? Just goes to show that I'm not in control. God is. And even though His plan for me doesn't seem like a happy one, I pray it has a happy ending.
I know that it's worth it, right? To hold the precious baby in my arms? I'm sorry but I can't even think that far yet. I can't even think about tomorrow, or what I'm going to eat for lunch right now.
If you've never experienced morning sickness (all day) during your pregnancy, I am soooo incredibly jealous of you. I would have 10 babies if I didn't have to go through this part. Please consider yourself lucky. And please don't judge those of us who suffer.
I told you it was going to be one of those posts. Sorry for being negative. I'm really not in the right frame of mind right now.
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Kat... I totally understand every word! It is not being negative... it is being real! Whine all you want and it doesn't mean you don't want the baby. It doesn't make you a bad person. You just feel miserable! There is no way to describe feeling terrible ALL THE TIME! Have you found any food that helps? I ate a lot of nuts and popcorn. Mostly just stuff that didn't taste bad coming back up! Stay away from fruit loops! ha ha. I actually found going to work and being busy helped, though there were some days that I told the kids not to talk to me and I wouldn't talk to them. I am so sorry your sick and feel free to whine all you want! love ya!
Hey Kat, I don't often comment, but I blog-stalk you regularly. I think I can help a little this time. With all three of my pregnancies I was sick 24/7 for the whole 9 months -- started at 2-3 weeks and ended after delivery -- so I really do know what you're going through. Had to have IVs, too. Here are a few things that helped me:
First, try peppermint (no other kind of mint works!). Sip peppermint tea while you're still in bed in the morning. Skip the saltines. After about 20 minutes keeping the tea down, get up and eat something light but with lots of protein, like cheese, yogurt or turkey. Carry little peppermints (like Starlight Mints) with you and pop one in your mouth as soon as you start feeling queesy. Peppermint gum works, too, but not as well. Another flavor that helps is ginger, if you like it normally...you can buy ginger flavored suckers at places like Motherhood.
Lots of people recommend taking vitamin B6 and half a tablet of Unisom at bedtime. If you take them, don't wait until bedtime. Every night eat something with good protein and carbs (like PB&J with a small glass of milk) around 7 or 8 and take them then. The carbs will help you feel full enough to sleep and the proteins will break down more slowly and reducing some of the nausea in the morning. The food will make the digestion of the pills easier and you'll be less likely to loose them.
Get plenty of sleep -- during the day, too. It'll help ease the nausea. If you can't sleep, ask your doctor about putting you on a sleep aid like Ambian. I used it during my last pregnancy because my nausea got worse when I couldn't sleep due to vomiting and horrible nightmares. Just adding that helped me dramatically.
Accupressure massage helps, too, but make sure that if you get a massage, the therapist is licensed and knows you are pregnant so there are no mistakes. Accupressure can sometimes start preterm labor. (I actually had a therapist start me with Benjamin but I was only a week from my due date.) Even having Travis rub your back, neck and head will often help. (Don't let him rub your hands or ankles since the pressure points are there.) Relaxation and deep breathing helped sometimes to prevent vomiting for me.
Sometimes, following your cravings is the best thing for you. During my pregancy with Lindy, I basically survived on butter-flavored popcorn and peppermint hot cocoa. It was literally the only stuff that stayed down. But I got protein, carbs, and calcium, so, who cares? If something sounds good (and when you're sick, that's not often) go ahead and eat it.
If nothing else seems to help, ask your doctor if you could use Phenergan in the gel form that is absorbed through the skin on the wrists. It is often used for children and the dosage is similar. I discovered it when my pediatrician prescribed it for Benji while I was pregnant with Lindy. It SAVED my LIFE! It is at least as effective as the pills of the shots and it doesn't leave you as sleepy and you can't throw it up. I was even able to attend a temple session without throwing up when I used it!
I know you'll hear a TON of advice from people all over, and you may use some and you may not use any. These suggestions have helped me and some of my girlfriends, but they don't work for everyone. If you don't want to try them, don't worry, I won't be offended. If they help, I'm glad. Let me know if you have any questions about any of this. You can email me or call me anytime, too. bhandies@msn.com or 435-531-3461.
They call 'code blue' when someone doesn't have a heart beat and they need cpr. We heard it at least 20 times during our stay in the NICU. (heard it throughout the hospital, not the NICU).
I hope that you begin to feel better. I get pretty sick during my first trimester, but not as sick as you, poor girl! It's so hard to be sick! Those people who are 'reminding' you that you 'chose' to get pregnant obviously don't understand what it's like to be as sick as you and how hard it is!
That was me. All day morning sickness and it never went away. I was throwing up the day before Ava was born. Pregnancy was the most painful thing (aside from c-section recovery) I've ever had to go through, but somehow a year later, I'd give anything to go through it again. Sorry its been so hard. I hope it does get better for you. Congrats on your pregnancy!
I'm not expert on this stuff. But my sister said when she had morning sickness sucking on a peppermint or any little candy really helped her. I think she also keeps a bottle of tums in her purse for the whole 9 months. I hope it doesn't last the whole pregnancy. Good luck!
This sucks. I'm sorry. Sounds like some good advice listed above. I hope something gives you comfort.
Debbie just gave me your blog! I am happy for you, but totally feel for you! Morning sickness is horrible and it makes being happy about being pregnant next to impossible! I hope that things get better in the coming weeks, hang in there! Let me know if you need anything, and don't feel bad about complaining/venting! There are lots of us that feel the same way!
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