whew, that was a close one!

Yesterday I was presented with an opportunity that I really wanted to accept. I changed my entire school schedule around to accommodate for this opportunity, and to give my boss more availability to interpret. This change seemed best for everyone. My boss was pleased that I gave her more availability, the people were happy that offered me this opportunity, and I was glad I could still take my 4 classes. I hastily made the decision. I was surprised that everything fell wonderfully into place and I was able to make the change. It seemed to come as a blessing.

As the evening wore on, I felt horrible about this decision. Well horrible is an understatement. I felt physically ill about it. I wanted this opportunity and I knew it would give me experience. Not only that, but this opportunity could lead to several others. However I knew I had to turn it down and change my schedule back to the way it was. I didn't want to, but the Spirit was so strong, I couldn't ignore it. I would much rather face my boss, turn down the job and live with the consequences than ever experience that feeling again.

All I could do was hope that the Lord would be merciful and not let me experience too much of a hard time from making the wrong decision. I felt bad enough for making the wrong decision without consulting Him first. I changed my class schedule immediately. I wasn't able to completely change it to the original, because people had already taken my spot in the classes. I still have the same classes, just at a slightly different time. Tender mercy #1. I emailed my boss before retiring to bed and first thing this morning, she texted me to let me know it was alright. She wasn't mad at all. HUGE tender mercy #2. (For those of you who know my boss, this is a big thing. She is in charge of scheduling all the interpreters at UVU and it is very stressful. I gave her a crappy schedule to begin with, I get her hopes up, and then change my mind. She was so nice about it!) Next, I talked with the people who offered me the opportunity. They said not to worry, that this opportunity would actually come up again, and that I'd be the first in mind. Tender mercy #3.

I know it seems like no big deal, but it really is. This opportunity would have changed my life, but it wasn't right. Everything is back to normal and much better. I feel so great knowing that I proved the Lord I was willing to follow HIS will, even though I REALLY wanted this other opportunity. (I'm being vague because nothing was set in stone and it needs to be kept on the D.L.) I sacrificed today what I wanted sooo badly, for something the Lord had in store for me. I may never know why it wasn't meant to be, but I am happy I didn't even go down that path. I was blessed for fixing things and in the end choosing the right. I am still being immensely blessed. I still can't believe this is my life! It's wonderful!